Monday, August 20, 2012
Moved On.
I've finally moved on. It wasn't easy, due to the fact that many things still remind me of you. I think about you every now and then, all the happy memories of us, but the next moment, what you did to me flashed back in my mind. Talked to them about you and yeah, I totally agreed with them. I wouldn't say getting together with you was a mistake, but it is something which I'd probably never do again. You are good as a friend, but nothing more.
No, it's not because of them that I moved on, they just re-iterate what I always wanted to say but don't know how to put into words. They just knew exactly what I was thinking and said it out to me, making me even clearer that this is the case.
Just now, daddy drove me to Marine Parade for a while, it instantly reminded me of the worst birthday I've ever had in my 17 years of life. Yes, it is literally the worst, and you were the one who ruined it. Came back home and decided that I am going to forget about you and move on. There are other people, and other things even more worthy of my care and concern, you, are not important to me anymore.
Deleted all our pictures from my phone, no longer keeping them anymore. I don't want to scroll through and see pictures of us together. No, don't get me wrong, it will not make me feel like getting back together with you anymore, it disgusts me rather. To know that you could be so sweet one moment, and turn into a monster in the blink of an eye. I was at a loss when I was with you, I literally lost myself. Now, I am going to stand up for myself , I am me, I'm not going to let you or anyone else control me.
Like honestly, the way you treat me, ask me questions like you suspect me, suffocate me by getting jealous so very easily and not even letting me go for camps, outings with my class, my friends, even doing project you will always interfere, ruining my day in the end. My parents don't even do that to me. They gave me freedom and who are you to take it away from me? So, FUCK YOU, I AM MOVING ON.
12:54:00 AM
Cheryl