Friday, August 31, 2012
Catching up.
After so long, finally we met again. Really happy. Yes, that's my darling sinkin. hahaha. Missed her so damn much can! We've been really busy and couldn't meet up much :\ sigh. But oh well, got to see her yesterday and today! Awesome day :D
Well, went back to PRSS for choir investiture yesterday, awesome to see the old and young people hahaha. The sec1s are really talented in many ways :D so cute to see them dancing and all. PRSS choir makes me feel at home. I can just be myself with them (: Love all of them so much! After the investiture, went to dabao food and ate at the open plaza and tampines mall :D Sat there, ate and caught up with the people. It was awesome, even if we were just gossiping, talking about "politics" and weslie's cafe plans.. It was still enjoyable.
Today, went back to PRSS for teachers' day celebrations. Many of the awesome 4e4 people came back! Even though not as close, but still, we are 4e4'11 and we are awesome! Took pictures with Mdm Sumrah & Ms Ang, missed them and missed secondary school so much! Kinda wish we could re-live sec4 again. hahaha. Had lunch with sinkin, soohwa, menglin, aloysius, peifann & jiaying :D Gossiped about a certain person hahahaha wtf. Damn fun can. Okay its like damn mean of me but oh well. ~.~
Hmm, had a tiring day today so I shall rest early.. Woke up at 7am -_- Like damn long never wake up at such godly timing already. hahahaha. Goodnights people (:
11:37:00 PM
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
BOREDOM DURING HOLIDAYS >.>
Was really bored for the past two days. Stayed in bed and doodled hahaha. And yeah, as you can see, this is the result of my boredom -_-" No, I didn't really create them out of my brain. Drew them off the net. Yeah, don't judge me please. I'm just drawing cause I like it. I admit I'm not creative enough to come up with all these, so I have to look and draw from observation. Though obviously I do edit the stuffs a little. (: Most of them are actually coloured pictures, not black and white. hahahaha.
Well, speaking of boring holidays, I'm glad I finally have some plans and fortunately, a job too! Dad went to help me ask around and yeah, found me a job at one-north -_- It's so damn far, like going to school, but I guess I don't really mind. I totally embarrassed myself just now. Was talking rather loudly saying "COME BACK THEN TALK AHH" to my dad and suddenly the boss or the boss's son came on the line. WTF right. -_- He was rather nice, telling me the info I need. Well, yeah. After that found out he's actually my dad's friend's son, and he's 26, chinese. -_- He sounded like a non-chinese to me lol. Okaaay. Total embarrassment can! Whatever ah. >.> Shall consider working since the working hours are flexible, which is wonderful!
Now as I'm typing I'm super excited about certain upcoming events like the dinner after prss choir investiture on thursday, meeting up with my girls on friday for teachers' day celebrations, camp apocalypse, movie date with jia and atiqah, and of course the bintan bonding trip for dvmd! WOOH! :D Can't wait for those events to come. hehe.
Alright, actually I have no idea what else to blog about and I'm rather tired. Shall turn off my macbook and maybe read till I fall asleep? (: Nights.
2:03:00 AM
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Time is ticking away.
The time is tickin', time is tickin'. The time is tickin' away~
Okay yeah im really happy that my watch came in the mail today! Looks awesome hehe! It came really nicely, bubble wrapped on the clock face. hahaha! Okay enough about the watch, back to what I really wanted to blog about.
I don't know since when was I so bothered by this. Yeah, when your replies come extremely late. I don't know, I am constantly checking my phone waiting for your message to come, and getting disappointed when it didn't. -__- this is insanity. Plus, I actually dreamt of you last night?! Can you believe it?! WTF lol. I shouldn't be thinking so much, shouldn't be doing this. yes cheryl, stop it. now. before something bad happens.
Okay enough of my nonsensical ranting. LOL. I guess I shall stop now, before i start to babble out every little detail. -__- nights humans. Im gonna go eat supper now. :D
12:16:00 AM
Saturday, August 25, 2012
AWESOMEST DAY EVERRRRR. LOVE MY 56 BABIES. AWESOME PROJECT H.
Today, the last day of CF, the last day with my beryls. Started off hectic as I was really late for our lunch date at 1pm, thanks to the trip to AIA at tampines which took super ultra long 'cause the person damn inexperienced, everything also don't know. -_- Ended up with a bad mood at the start of the day. But oh well, my beryls made my day better (:
Was still hectic towards the afternoon. After lunch went to Inno V to like, get ready and stuff. Then waited for 30 minutes for yoong shenq to come back to his office so that we could take our stuff. Then set up and waited for our turn to present! Took like tons of photos with my dearest beryls hehehe! Presentation went quite well, other than the fact that we were suddenly attacked by a swarm of flies(?) during presentation itself. so annoying LOL. Glad that our game actually came out well (:
After presentation ended at about 5+ or 6pm, we went for PROJECT H! Was quite awkward at first but quickly warmed up :D Took loads of polaroids photos with my beryls hehehe. When Iqin wanted to go home, she came to me and hugged me, and the next moment, she was tearing. ); Seeing her cry made me feel like crying too omg ): Almost teared hahahha. I know I'm so gonna miss my beryls so damn much. Each and every one of them. ): Didn't expect CF to end so fast.. We really enjoyed our time together even if we're a whole class of girls with only one guy! hahah! I love my beryls! :D
One by one they gotta leave for home, hugged them before they left. Felt so sad omgosh. But oh well.. Went inside with Louisa, Jia and Atiqah! James sang a song hahaha! He actually sang "you raised me up" LOL. Not bad, not bad at all. :> Anyways, after all the blah, it was dance night! Was quite awkward at first as nobody dared to go up. Got pulled upstage by Nicole, so pulled Jia along with me :P As for Atiqah and Louisa, they were pulled on stage by Adeline. hahahaha! We were standing at one corner.. feeling really awkward. After awhile we warmed up and partied like crazy!!! :D Had tons of fun! How I wished my beryls were all there! HEHEHE. :> I've got to say, I sure didn't mind staying the whole time! :D
Common Foundation has finally come to an end. No, it won't be the end of James Beryl 56, we will still be meeting up, all cause we love each other too much. (: But here comes a 2 month long holiday, and when we get back to school, a new chapter of my poly life starts. Kind of excited for it, but sad at the same time 'cause there won't be anymore "you guys wanna meet up for lunch? eat at fc3 ... blabla " ); Gonna miss that so much omg. But oh well, let's not be sad. We can still meet up for lunch and all. hehe.
I'm getting tired hahaha.. danced non-stop for like 2 hours? LOL. my feets hurt 'cause i was in heels. >< Hmm, gonna off my macbook and lie down on bed and just be comfortable, because i can. :P Goodnights . (:
1:08:00 AM
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
HAPPY DAY
Rather happy today! 'Cause of what I've just planned with the girls! Gonna go shopping with them for stuff for Project H! :D It's kind of hard to plan what to wear 'cause we have presentation on the same day LOL. Unless you wanna bring like, an extra set of clothes. heavy & troublesome much. >.>
Hokay anyway today was hell of a hectic start of a day. Went to school early, wanted to print in VAS studio but Izzul said the quality like shit. Decided to go GC studio but the printer can only print one by one. Went to library, quality damn bad. So ended up at FC3 (Okay i didnt even know about it till today LOL). The aunty nagged from the start till the end omg. damn annoying please.
After submission of FDS stuff, we went to Inno V to help the other class play their game. Had pizza with the awesome beryls! :D Gonna miss them so so so so much! Managed to take a picture with each and every one of them today muahahah. Hope they'll like what I'll be doing for them! >< It will probably be the last thing I can do for them, well except for atiqah of course. That girl will be with me for the next 2 and 1/2 years :D
Okay I honestly don't know what else to blog about hahahah. This is probably about all. :\ Gotta go do the stupid HTI journal entries. So annoying. Don't even know what to write about. -_- Greek mythology, seriously?!?!?!
Anyway FYI, I will be trying to blog as regularly as possible now. :D Don't know why hahaha, just suddenly feel like blogging. :D Don't know who reads my blog nowadays but oh well, just blog for the sake of blogging. :D
12:54:00 AM
Monday, August 20, 2012
Moved On.
I've finally moved on. It wasn't easy, due to the fact that many things still remind me of you. I think about you every now and then, all the happy memories of us, but the next moment, what you did to me flashed back in my mind. Talked to them about you and yeah, I totally agreed with them. I wouldn't say getting together with you was a mistake, but it is something which I'd probably never do again. You are good as a friend, but nothing more.
No, it's not because of them that I moved on, they just re-iterate what I always wanted to say but don't know how to put into words. They just knew exactly what I was thinking and said it out to me, making me even clearer that this is the case.
Just now, daddy drove me to Marine Parade for a while, it instantly reminded me of the worst birthday I've ever had in my 17 years of life. Yes, it is literally the worst, and you were the one who ruined it. Came back home and decided that I am going to forget about you and move on. There are other people, and other things even more worthy of my care and concern, you, are not important to me anymore.
Deleted all our pictures from my phone, no longer keeping them anymore. I don't want to scroll through and see pictures of us together. No, don't get me wrong, it will not make me feel like getting back together with you anymore, it disgusts me rather. To know that you could be so sweet one moment, and turn into a monster in the blink of an eye. I was at a loss when I was with you, I literally lost myself. Now, I am going to stand up for myself , I am me, I'm not going to let you or anyone else control me.
Like honestly, the way you treat me, ask me questions like you suspect me, suffocate me by getting jealous so very easily and not even letting me go for camps, outings with my class, my friends, even doing project you will always interfere, ruining my day in the end. My parents don't even do that to me. They gave me freedom and who are you to take it away from me? So, FUCK YOU, I AM MOVING ON.
12:54:00 AM
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Updates on Life
Yeah, after that crazy post about the awesome national day, now about me. hahaha.
Finally, major submissions are all kind of over, especially VAS. Seriously , i feel so much more relaxed right now.
There's still HTI Reflection Journal, GC Design Portfolio and the FDS submission of model + A2 Panel and the presentation of our game, but it is manageable I guess.
Having mixed emotions about CF finally ending. I am happy about the fact that CF is finally over like ugh, I don't have to have so much sleepness nights and enjoy 2 months of holiday, but the thought of going to my own course class after CF and not meeting the beryls in the morning as usual, makes me real sad. I'm really gonna miss them so damn bad. ): We went through this 6 torturous months of CF together, waaah. ):
Gonna miss how we will always spam on whatsapp when submissions are nearing, asking each other if we are going to school earlier to do work, the crazy things we talk about (pewdiepie, pruck, blow jobs etc.) yeah you did not read wrong, we just talk about retarded and random stuff. HAHAHAHA. And also, the crazy things we do, like atiqah showing all of us her cleavage cause she was really high for some reason. LOL. Gonna miss them like crazy! <3 font="font">
Okay that was so.. emotional all of the sudden. Ah well. ):
12:23:00 AM
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Late post
OKAY! So, i finally have time to blog. this post should be up here like a week ago -_-'' was too busy chionging submissions for the past week that I don't have time to even sleep, let alone blog.
So, on national day I finally met up with the crazy people! Yeah and being abnormal, we went to visit the peranakan museum and the stamp museum! It was quite cool actually hahaha! Below is a rather nice picture taken by my darling sinkin, loved the photo except for the creepy man at the back LOL. we were all laughing like hell when we noticed it. hahaha!
We then went to this area where they were show-casing "Emily on Emerald Hill" thing, then we went to play with the chops! wasted quite a few pieces of the nice-feeling paper there hahaha! At least I'm nice, i took the paper with me and not leave it there LOL.
After so long, I don't think we look that much alike anymore right? hahahaha! Wonder if there will still be people asking if we're sisters! Regret not tricking those people hahaha! It'll be fun sia!
Moving on, we went to the stamps museum! It was so cool! I didn't know they had the Simpsons stamps! so adorable right! :D
Yeah you're not seeing things, that's me being a stamp. hahahah! Quite fun actually XD
The weird poses of a photographer. hahahahahaha!
So, we were told to look natural like we're chatting but we ended up laughing instead. hahaha! It was like awkwardly funny for us!
Trying to act beng LOL.
Okay this was a real funny incident. We were just walking and talking when suddenly Weslie just fell face-flat on the ground, slow motion somemore. Ended up laughing like crap. HAHAHAHA. SO EPIC OK.
Caught the Singapore Flag from the NDP :D
Dinner with the lovelies! Ate at a place called "Saizeriya" at Liang Court! The food was yummy and the price was damn cheap! Ate like 3 Spaghetti, 2 of the baked rice, the mussles shown below, and also the garlic bread thing! Spent only $34.50 NETT! Damn awesome!! Should go there and try the food some day guys! (Okay I have no idea who even reads, but it makes me happy to talk about it. hahahahah)
Lastly, a photo with khoo! He always has that 'qian da' face when taking pictures hahahah! so annoying la can! but still, missed him sia! like so long never see him and hang out together like this already!
Missed all of my lovelies so damn much! Gotta go out with them some day despite our hectic schedule! <3 nbsp="nbsp">
11:33:00 PM
Friday, August 03, 2012
Thoughts..
Just suddenly felt like blogging as many thoughts started flooding through my brain today.
Been in SP for almost one semester now, I thought I had many friends, but truth is, I was always alone. Behind those cheerful smiles, happy laughter, hides a lonely girl. Not trying to act emotional or anything, just really wanna type out all my thoughts, it's my only outlet.
I know, everyone has been treating me really nice, but truth is, once it is time to go home, I'm alone again. I only ever interact with you guys in school, or even if it is outside of school, it would be about school work. I really don't like this feeling. It leaves me really insecure. How i hope that somebody who is willing to be my friend will come along. Somebody I can rely on whenever I need the support.
I really wonder why are things this way. Is it because I'm not "cool" enough? or is it because I'm not friendly enough? I really don't know. I've been trying to be friendly to everyone I see, just because I'm afraid of loneliness, I want to make more friends. I thought I felt really alone when I was attached, as he was rather possessive, but never did I expect that I would feel even more alone than I was. When would that friend I need, come along?
I really hate this feeling. I miss my whole clique of friends. At least, to them, I am something. At least I am important to them, I mean something to them.
Another thought that came to my mind. What if i never stopped dancing? What if I took the initiative to join the show choir in singapore? What if I was still performing regularly? Would my life be different? If i never stopped dancing, would I be slim? I really wonder. If I never stopped singing, I would be happier I guess. Singing is my life, somehow. I can let out my stress and trouble with every note I sing, using the strength in supporting. I miss that feeling, that feeling when I stand on the stage and sing with my choir. That applause from the audience that belongs to us. Ugh, I really miss being a performer.
Okay like emo only but that's how I feel. seriously.
I know I'm ranting a lot today but oh well, I doubt anyone actually bothers to read my blog anyway, so I'm practically ranting to myself heehee. :>
10:57:00 PM
Thursday, August 02, 2012
Jia Chin just introduced me a song, Its Love,Me by Collin Raye . The lyrics are really meaningful, especially the chorus which is this letter which the grandma gave the grandpa.. ):
The lyrics of the songs :
I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923,
Grandpa kept it in his coat and showed it once to me
He said "boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago,
grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but i loved your grandma so."
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever.
But near to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead,
I found this letter and this is what it said,
"If you get there before i do,
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long i'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling, wait and see
And between now and then, till i see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."
I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and grandpa start to pray
I know i never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
but as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.
"If you get there before i do,
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long i'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling, wait and see
And between now and then, till i see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."
So sweet right!! >< ahhh. >< hahaha okay enough of that. Blogged just because of that song. heehee. such a sweet and meaningful song. :D
1:11:00 AM
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
Awkward Encounter with a Stranger
Today went okay, woke up surprisingly on time, but was late as i was still lying on the bed deciding if i should go for lecture hahaha. Felt so alone during lecture as atiqah didn't come ): Le sigh. Okay enough of that emo-ness LOL.
Went for lunch with atiqah at FC3 (been really long since I ate there LOL) then made our way to class. Was stopped by two guys otw there. He wanted to ask us a question, we thought he only wanted to ask for directions so agreed. But his first question was "When a guy wants to get ear piercing, you think its better to get one side or both sides? " LOL. Both of us were like thinking "?!?!??! That was like ultra random and awkward question" hahahah! Stayed there and answered his string of awkward questions like "The black studs or silvery kind?" "Where can my friend get his piercing at?" "How much does it usually cost?" LOL. Super ultra awkward can! The most ironic thing that happened today hahaha.
Other than that, nothing interesting really happened. I reached home and slept for 3.5hours straight. Guess I was really tired. >.> Oh well, gotta go do some VAS either today or tomorrow. Probably also start on HTI journal reflections (:
P.S You're really cute, even though you're so friendly but i still don't dare look at you sometimes. >.>
8:34:00 PM
Okay, I have no freaking idea why am i suddenly blogging right now.
It's kinda random, but i just feel like typing out how i feel. (even though i still have a stupid essay to do)
Been real long since i last blogged, and so far in the past, all my blogs has been of quarrels and how i feel. I'm happy to tell you guys that, we've broken up. I mean, its not like I'm happy that I've lost him or anything, but I'm really happy at gaining back my freedom and finding back myself. Not having to stress over things like " will he be happy if i sign up for this event? It is on a weekend!" or "should i go for this gathering/camp/chalet? Will he be angry and come find trouble again?" It really makes me a happier person (:
For now, I kinda just feel like being myself and concentrating on school since being in design school sucks up most of my free time.
Been in design school for almost a semester now, common foundation is ending soon, like real soon. I'm so used to the beryllers now that I have no idea how would I survive without them. Not like I don't like my DVMD class, its just that being together, going through this torturous cf period together, it just makes us closer as a class. True, we do have our individual disagreements and quarrels, but after all, we are still a class. 56 is the best! hahaha okay enough of my craziness. :\
Wondering how do I cope in my DVMD class when i'm not even close with those people. D: The only people I really talk to are francesca, atiqah, izzul, wanxin (sometimes).. and god knows who. I have no idea actually. I'm just not really close with them. Le sigh. I guess I shall wait till we split into our courses before complaining about the class. hahahhaa. :D
Recently has this weirdly happy feeling whenever i see this guy. Holy crap. I'm not falling for anyone am i? He's really cute, says hi and waves to me too.. hahaha. ok enough of that. its freaking random k. Enough of this topic :P It shall remain a secret.
Okay I have no idea what am i supposed to do for HTI play essay right now. D: Why in the world is Congkak not inside the list of traditional games?! I don't fancy having to research on another game for goodness' sake! Insanity. It's just stupid and wasting time. ~.~
Shall go and get the essay done in point form (or not) , and show mun ying tomorrow :>
P.S Weslie created a whatsapp group and named it " the siao char bors and shuai ge" HAHAHAHA. Forever as cute as always! He's like.. a brother and a dad to me. LOL. mad combination.
Okay enough of crapping. :> i shall go and do the essay. ~.~
2:06:00 AM
Cheryl
