Thursday, March 08, 2012
My mom talked to me today, this morning. She said a lot, which made me think it through.
She told me that nowadays I have changed a lot. I used to be an independent, mature and responsible girl which she never has to worry about. But I'm starting to worry her nowadays as I am getting more and more immature and childish in my thinking. Is it true? I don't know.
She told me that I have my rights to do whatever I want, whether it is going to work, school, camps or going out with my girlfriends, that he can't control or restrict me in this. She told me that I should not give in, that I should stand up for my own rights. I thought thoroughly about it, I realized how foolish I had been, trying to give in trying to make him happy at the expense of myself. I'm losing myself, I no longer have a character that belongs to me.
I must really thank you mummy, for waking me up from all these. Yes, I love him, but that doesn't mean that I have to give in to whatever he wants. We both have the rights to do what we want. We are in love, but that doesn't mean we have to lose our freedom or our friends just so that we can stick together. I really understand now.
I am going to stand up for myself now, but I'm not going to be too harsh. I do understand that for someone to change, it's not that easy. I will be by your side and support you while you change for the better. Like my mother said, you are a good person, a good boy, the problem lies in your thinking, which haven't really matured yet. It's okay baby, I will be there for you while you go through this. I know it's tough for you, but don't worry I'm here.
11:51:00 AM
Cheryl