Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Sometimes I really don't know if I should trust anyone anymore. I'm really scared that you'd find another girl or something. You keep telling me that you thought of finding another girl, you thought of two-timing me and stuffs..
Maybe you think that, telling me about your past is necessary.. Yeah I understand.. But I don't like it when you take them out to talk about it, when you start to compare.
Why is it that you can't believe that we can last? I myself believe so, I believe we can last. I know I have not been a very good girlfriend to you, I have been hurting you a lot, I have been a horrible girlfriend.
It hurts me a lot when you remember every little thing, every little detail about all your ex.. When I'm here trying to forget everything about my ex.. Trying my best to give in to you as much as possible..
I know, I am not a good girlfriend, I don't treat you as well as much as your ex.. But you have to believe that my feelings for you are true.. You have to remember about the times where we are happy together..
I am really scared of losing you.. I don't want to lose you.. Everyone around me tells me that I deserve better, but I told them, that I love you. I won't be able to let go of you just like that.
I know you've lost your trust in me, and I'm here trying to gain it back.. I know you are trying to guide me along, I know you meant well for me.. And I sincerely thank you for that..
I hope that you'll try too, on your part, to try to trust me again. I know it is difficult and it will take time, but I am willing to wait. Just because I love you.
10:58:00 PM
Cheryl