Tuesday, November 15, 2011
we had a big fight today due to my forgetfulness and carelessness.
I forgot to text him to tell him that i will most probably not see my phone as i went on the double bike with sinkin for the first time today as i was probably too excited about it.
I probably shouldn't have suggested that he come to send me home today, maybe all these wouldn't even have happened.
Anyway, i suffered a lot out of this. physically and mentally.
Called him and texted him non-stop without any replies from him. When he finally picked up the call, he asked me to search for him in the crowd. I did, and surprisingly succeeded. I went towards him and all he did was walk away from me. It hurts.
Its okay, i followed you and you again ignored me, you even plugged in your earpiece! It hurt me badly, all i could think of was walk away, and i did. But i didnt want to leave and ended up hiding in a corner just to look at you.
You walked past.. you went into white sands mall, i just had to follow you...
I was so elated that you actually called me..although i dont know whether it was out of concern or what.. then you walked.. away.. again...
you walked to mcdonalds', i didnt know if i should follow and i stood there, like a fool as you said. when you said you wouldn't come, i had to go find you despite the pain in my stomach.
I was so silly, i cried badly in public but you still wouldn't care. I read your statuses, it was real hurting.. i couldn't take the pain anymore too, and went away but i melted when you said 'come back!!!' ...
you were so nice to me, buying medicine and water for me... but i wondered why did you still care about me even when you're angry. so adorable.. (;
many things happened and you managed to send me home without talking to me. but it was so intense and it was so hurting that i said ' lets break up ' without even thinking. i know deep down in my heart i don't want to break up, but it was so painful that i said it and regretted it immediately after. luckily for me, you came after me.
we managed to talk it out underneath my block and then moved to block 34, without me shouting or anything. you were shouting, but i told myself i had to stay calm and not shout at you and make things worse, and i managed to stay calm and talk to you.
At last, the problem was solved, deep in my heart i was glad although your face was still kept with a frown..
I knew i couldnt just stand there and go home after that, i just had to hold your hand or hug you, and i managed to, without you rejecting my touch. it wasn't perfect but hugging you was so nice.. so so so nice.. (:
Oh and i practically melted when you asked me to go back to the lift just to hug me real tightly and explain that you'll never let go of me (: love you so much baby, i promise i will find the chance to try to tell my mother about you okay? i love you <3
9:28:00 PM
Cheryl